An agenda arises. Loneliness is something I've attempted to escape in the past by different means of hedonism. The result was nothing more than a few one night stands and emotions stirring in all the wrong places. Why would one continuously allude to such heartache - on purpose? The answer is simple: I have been looking for something I'm not ready to find.
Walking across campus at any given moment on any given day without even looking up 90% of the time and my little eye spots at least a dozen "woulds". The thought of settling with one person at my age seems ridiculous to me, yet I still seek someone to capture my attention and not release it. My heart desires something to communicate with, something to lay intertwined in and be unmasked. At last! Unmasked.
Lie to me baby spread your disease
Be everything I want but nothing I need
Trap me in lust and feed me your kiss
By the next morning it's me you won't miss
I'm tired of letting people in to be disappointments. Self control is my ultimatum and something I continually ignore practicing. Believe you me I shall once again reign as master of my self. Hopefully soon. I shall report my progress periodically.
